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Feeling off

Granted I've not had much positive to write about in a while, and I'm sorry about that, I can't really be much fun right now.
Headaches, lack of sleep, have been plaguing me recently, now my stomach has joined in on the party.
Don't know what's going on, I've been dropping weight, I had set a goal for weight loss, I just haven't been able to work at it. Somehow I surpassed that goal and I don't know how or why.

I have been feeling nausea in the mornings for the past month, and stuff just isn't feeling right. I really don't want to get anything right now, I've got enough to deal with.

So tired recently

Just tired recently, don't feel like I have the energy to do anything.
Found out that I was talked about in an article recently by the Apache Lucene / Lucid folks
http://www.lucidimagination.com/Community/Hear-from-the-Experts/Podcasts-and-Videos/Interview-Ryan-McKinley

Which is really nice to get.

I need to do up the resume, the market place looks so baron. Need to find a new place to live.
And sort out what to keep, sell and throw away. I've got so much stuff, almost my entire life is in this bloody apartment, and I'm going to have to get rid of so much of it.

Haven't been sleeping much, it feels like this throbbing headache won't go away.
I am just so tired

Why I don't want to move back to Ireland

An article that describes what's happened to my home land with this economy.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/29571605/

I often joke that Ireland went from the 1920's to the 1990's, there was no in between.

The 90's were good, but Ireland didn't know enough to invest in the future, it just sucked up all the money
it could. When I started working it was the 4th largest exporter of software in the world.
Somewhat like Iceland today, it just didn't know how to mange it's new wealth..

And it got hammered after the dot-com bubble, I was lucky to be in London at that time.

The world is shrinking, Ireland is about to be crippled again by greed. It frustrates me, it's an amazing place to grow up, I miss the sights, the clean air, my family there, but I couldn't live there again.

My heart is heavy.